After a long break and a few life changing experiences, I have decided that I want to start writing again, as a) I miss it and b) I currently have a lot of extra free time at the moment. (Self-isolating and quarantined due to COVD-19).
The last two years have been a rollercoaster of ups, downs, highs, lows, smiles, tears and all different kinds of emotions. I lost my dearest grandad in February 2018, got married in August 2018, moved out from my parents home and in with the in-laws, got pregnant 2 months later, moved out and into our own home in the beginning of 2019, started my maternity leave in June, started panic shopping for baby’s arrival, and finally gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, Nila and became a mum.
In the last two years, I have smiled so much, laughed hard, cried a lot, been depressed, felt sad and been uplifted, but more than anything, I feel grateful. Grateful for the life that I have been given and the new addition that has joined my life. These last 2 years has taught me that nothing is permanent and change is inevitable, whether we like it or not. One day I’m living at home with my parents, so carefree and relaxed and then the next you know I am married, joint a new family and now a mum to a 9 months old baby. It’s so surreal for me to even type these words and see them in black and white in front of me.
Don’t get me wrong, it’s not as daunting as I am probably making it sound but when I am sitting here and thinking about the last two years, I get small snippets of the last 2 years as a flashback in front of me and I am overwhelmed. In everything that has happened, both good and bad, I have learnt that if something is going to happen, it is going to happen and there is nothing you can do to stop it and each thing you go through and witness is a learning lesson. I thought at 28, I had it all sussed out and knew what I wanted and what I didn’t but I guess the path that was destined for me was meant to be this one. I am now a strong believer in meant to be’s and believe things are meant to happen for a reason in order for us to become stronger people and build ourselves to be better.
These last two years have been a stepping stone for me to reach my destiny, Nila. In all the good and the bad, the best chapter of my life so far has been Nila. The chapter I can keep re reading over and over again and never be bored. Though she is only 9 months, she has taught me so much about life and about myself. Made me feel emotions that I have never knew existed in me before. She has made these last years seem like a piece of cake and given me a new dimension to my life. I feel like I have been upgraded, from a standard life package to now premium. Feels like I went from a standard Spotify account to a premium account. Now, I reflect on the last two years and think to my self, everything was worth it. Every up and down was worth it and if everything that happened led me to Nila, then I would keep reliving those years just to not forget about the silver lining she is to me.
She made me believe in miracles.
Have a lovely day all and stay safe